Today was my first day back to work in nearly 4 months. I started the day with a fast unto the Lord. I woke up around 4:50 am, ready to feed the kids. Thankfully they had tons of bottles prepared in the fridge. The feeding went on without a hitch and they were out for a good while. As I began to get ready, I felt a notable nudge from the Holy Spirt to fast for breakfast. This usually causes me a bit of anxiety because I often fear that I will not fast honorably enough to merrit the break through God desires. (Trust me, I know how ridiculous that sounds. I felt ridiculous even typing it) Yet and still, anxious is what I feel when I'm nudged to fast. I realize now that it's an attack from the enemy to discourage me from experiencing a breakthrough from my heavenly Father.
Anyway, I fasted for my breakfast meal from 6am to 12pm. During this time I prayed for the Lord to help me to have a smooth transition back to work. I prayed over my children and my husband. I prayed for my mother and sister, who lived with me at the time. As I left the house, I felt tempted to fear for my children. I felt tempted to worry that something might go wrong with them while I was away. I also felt tempted to worry that I wouldn't be able to keep up at work. During my fast I was instructed to cast out of my mind all of those fears. To not event think of them once. Whenever those worrisome thoughts came near, I recited my heavenly instructions. I chose to obey God and not think about all that could go wrong. Instead I prayed continously and enjoyed my day.
When it was time for me to return home, I rejoiced in my Spirit. I had overcame all of the fears of the day. I overcame the fear to fast and was able to complete it honorably. I overcame the feeling of worry concerning my performance at work. I ended up having a wonderful day and was met with a warm welcome from my coworkers and students. Lastly, I resisted the temptation to fear for my children's saftey, and returned home to 2 healthy and happy babies.
The moral of this story is, as a new mom there are a million things to worry about and be fearful of. But what I've found is that God loves and cares about us so intentionally that He oversees the little and big cares we bear. I entrusted all that I cherish to the Lord and He kept me and them in perfect peace. May you be encouraged in this momma.
â€I Peter 5:6-7 NKJV‬
[6] Therefore humble yourselves under the mighty hand of God, that He may exalt you in due time, [7] casting all your care upon Him, for He cares for you.
â€Psalm 55:22 ESV‬
[22] Cast your burden on the Lord, and he will sustain you; he will never permit the righteous to be moved.